"you're so negative"

nah, im just real. sorry you were baby fed lies and can't realize what is going on right in front of you. im just putting out there what you are too nieve to see and somehow I turn out the bad guy.

I may get back to posting pictures and fun stuff soon, I've been sick for the past 3-4 days so I've been MIA. Sorry for the heavy topic to anyone that looks at this for fun, but it needed to be put out there.

current thoughts

sitting in my house all day today has me thinking too much so i'm going to vent here. quickly beginning to realize there is nothing here for me here in Richmond and nothing notable keeping me here. For a few months there was this video i've been hyped on making but no one seems to share the same hype I do. I figure since I have no solid job right now and going to a community college is the least of my interest I would not work this summer and not take summer classes and focus on filming for this video so I can reach the deadline I've made everyone aware of, the end of the summer. It would make sense that since there are only 3-4 of my entire extended social circle that are interested in filming for a full part that this video would not take long to film for but it's the exact opposite. Going into this I realised that jobs/girlfriends/family/etc. would put a handicap on filming for this thing to a certain extent but never this bad. even recent events within my friend's lives that would logically cause them to be able to skate more have done the exact opposite somehow. I guess I just wish someone else would take the same interest level in this project im working on that I am but no one will. I'm already over this video and could just put out a shit little web edit with the little footage I have for the 15 people that are on facebook right now to see. I wish people took the same interest in my video that people do with other videos that people are working on right now. Dj and Will have two handfulls of people that are hitting them up nonstop to go out and film everyday and these are the same people I see on a daily basis, and on top of that the same people I have to listen to say "dude when is your video coming out I want to see it?" the answer is simple, its not coming out unless you come get down with me every once in a while. another thing that bugs me is that no one goes out to skate anymore without a camera and cameraman present. people only hit me up to skate when they want to film something. I just spent 20 minutes going through every person in my contacts that skates to see if they wanted to go out and skate around, not one person was down. instead these poeple would rather sit in a hot room and stare at a TV mindlessly until someone passes them the bowl. I know that my friends and I are getting older and getting closer to piling out but I didnt think It would happen so fucking soon. I'm trying to travel and skate this summer but everyone would rather sit around and speak in "remember when..."s until an opportunity to fuck a girl comes up and they dip out fast as fuck then pass out and wake up to work an 8 hour shift at a job they hate. i dont get it? what are you saving up money for? i worked whenever I could during the school year to get money for this summer so I didnt have to work, but unfortunetly thats already running out and there is no reason for me not to have a job right now since everyone is to busy doing the same thing. im done for now, but to reiterate, deadline for filming for my video is the end of summer and im not budging. if no one has a full part then no one has a full part and it will be a 30 minute long montage.

NYC

completely out of order, don't bother trying. I went up with jeff and brent for the maloof and they decided not to skate any so i stayed a few extra days with andrew and dj and skated.